Judith Lavezziuiet. It is all around me. No presents. No need. No urgency. No plan. Just enveloping my morning warmth in a steamy cup of tea, and pleasurable lassitude.
What is this? The phone rings, trilling it’s insistency. I wait. Perhaps I don’t have to answer it, I am not a machine to be ordered about, a slave to jump to the chirping of digital crows. No, I am not.
I continue my tea.
The best gifts came without wrapping. It is for those, the rough jewels, that I am giving thanks, today
It looks like this. I meet people, here there and everywhere, and some of them stay to be a part of my life for a period of time; for a long time, or short, it doesn’t really matter, as they are my fellows, and we accompany each other along a journey. These are the gift-carriers, the three kings bringing unintended consequences that were both unearned and undeserved.
I have a theory . Actually, I have many theories, and some of them make sense, tho not all. This one is about our need for finding fulfillment and meaning. Most people are absorbed, in one fashion or another, in the search for The One.
I lay in bed at night, thinking. I sleep when I am reading. I get drowsy when I work at my computer.
I wonder if I am wired backwards, somehow caught in a loop that runs in reverse. I sit for hours in front of my laptop screen, and then drive myself to exercise. I worry about my adult children, but never as much as when Iam with them, which is when my worry hits a zenith. I do not wonder if I am sane, so much as I wonder how far off the bubble I would measure, if tested. So far, no testing.
My interests in Genealogy (my own and others), all things Italian, and, in particular, the time of my Great-grandfathers immigration to America from the area near Betola has motivated me toward research and story building.
Across a year spanning 2010-2011, I developed a series of stories/essays which chronicled some of my experiences.
This was compiled into a self-published draft entitled: Leafcutting: ONE WOMAN’S JOURNEY THROUGH AN ORDINARY, EXTRAORDINARY YEAR. Excerpts of this book are included in articles here.
The literary journal, Many Mountains Moving, published a short article of mine entitled “The Argument” in their 13th issue (Vol. V, No. 1).
The day began simply, but deteriorated.
The experience of his anger, the rational disappointment of their life together when he finally expressed it to her felt as though it were taking place in another, strangely disconnected body. She vaguely felt herself pulled toward the scene where she stepped in front of the car, hearing the pop! her own blunted thud of body against steel, the bloodless, guiltless exit. She watched the accident, which was remarkably sound free, and thought how easy and clean it was.
I had an article published in Montana Woman magazine – the August, 2011 issue which was lost online due to the change in ownership of the publication.
I’m looking for a draft in my files currently…